Shoo im effin up, gotta calm that shyt down...My weakness catchin up to me n tryna control it but don't know if I can. When I try it breaks, when I dont it breaks me. But shoo im happy glenpo stoppin fuckin up, now needa get amir wayne n bla'ah to stop shomking..and pigs fly. watevs. new years was alright though, lot better than christmas, though still kinda disapointing. Aishh, when I put myself out there, its in vain, so dont know why i do, better try n stop while i can..but it'll be hard. Hopefuly it goes well... PEACE NIKKAS =]

asdfg

Hmm...so some bs happen to me over this weekend. I don't know if I should be mad about it or not..
On Friday night I was with a group of friends and we ate out. Then someone dropped off two people while me and my friend walked with another person back to her apartment. Then the guy who dropped off two people came back. I was sitting with my friend while those two people went up to the apartment. Then the guy that dropped off those two people texted my friend, and I read it. It said something like, go home and when Austin goes home, come back. VP ORDERS. So I was like, wow. Not because it was like ditching me, but because they had to be kids, go behind my back, and "ditch" me. That shyt happened in freakin fifth grade and we in college. If they could say it straight up to my face, it'd be cool. But naw. My friend felt really bad and I wasn't mad at him, but I didn't know what to do cause it was the first time that happened to me. So I kind of made him go up even though he didnt want to. I didnt want him to stay with me cause he'd end up diong nothin cause I had no plans, and I know it wasnt his fault. But then he said he was going to yell at them but I didnt want that. He ended up doing it. He told me that now they realised they shouldnt. But if they apoligze to me, I don't want to hear it, becaise it wont be sincere, they'll apoligzie just because he told them to not because they realized it was wrong. The thing is, I don't know if I should be mad at it, because the people arent really friends, just aqutiances, but no one wants that to happen ykno. Meh.. watevs.

Content

It's been a chill week, so everything is pretty much chill =]
Met some new people, hung out with some great friends.
Nothing much coming till finals..
But fo now im content and greatful and thankful for my friends and family =]
Night/Peacee

Don't Judge A Book By Its Cover

It's so weird how we are. People say first impressions sticks with you.
But when we first meet someone, all you can get from the other person is their appearance.
So would people be naturally attracted to more attractive people? And if they're not, would they think differently of them?
I try not to do that but I subconsciously do. But before I judge I try to get to know the other person.
There's so much people who just judge right away though before the get to know someone.
I mean someone thought I listen to clasical music just by my appearance when I listen to rap since first grade..
If they really knew me, they wouldn't make that assumption.
But recently, just meeting so many people just open my eyes.
But I don't know what to think about the situation i'm in..
It seems like everything is alright on the other end, but on my end, its still hard.
With everything just popping up infront of my face, it's hard to handle.
Im starting to go backwards where I was two months ago.
Just tryna to move on.

Right now i've been listening to this song all day.
The Other Side - Burno Mars feat. Cee Lo Green & B.o.B

Truth of the matter is I’m complicated

You’re as straight as they come

You go ‘bout your day, baby

While I had from the sun

Its better if you don’t understand

‘Cause you won’t know what it’s like

Until you try

You know I, I’ve been waiting on the other side

And you, all you gotta do is cross the line

I could wait a whole life time but you just gotta decide

You know I, I’ve been waiting on the other

Waiting on the other side.

Good day

Today was such a good day :D
But gonna be a long night :/ Physics all dayy :ppp
PEACE :D

Whee

I saw Jung Jae today. But recently I cant tell who he really is.
He acted nice and all happy. But then later on its opposite.
Some people can't be themselves, they just act how they think they should act.
We could of been good friends since freshman year in high school, but not anymore.
Its sad cause we could of been good friends too.
So I don't know what to think now after I saw him, I feel happy, but kind of mad at the same time.
Mehh. Time for physics :/

Damn...
My friend is hurt. She at the point where she wants her life to end.
I try to be there for her but she isn't opening up to me so I can't do anything for her.
So I try to just be there for her..makes me sad I can't do anything for her.
Wish she gets better =]

Animal

I'm listening to Animal again..But I feel the meaning of the song it had to me is gone. Whenever I talk to her now, the feeling is different. But I guess it's a good thing to because the situation would of been hard if it did work out..meh it's cool though =]